My Weightloss & Blogging Journey...

Welcome…So, I’ve never blogged before. For those of you reading this that have, bear with me as I am a “blogging novice”… If you’re reading this, you probably know me – and know that I’ve been overweight for a long, long time. In fact, as long as I can remember… I’ve never felt particularly bad in terms of body image, but I’ve always had the nagging thought in the back of my head that I’m fat. I’ve tried a bunch of different things to lose weight: Weight Watchers (easily 2 dozen times), Medicines, various gyms, etc… And about 3 years ago, I decided to look at gastric bypass surgery. Without boring you with the details, thankfully I decided against that. Now, 3 years later, I find myself a 36 year old woman, mother, wife, daughter and friend – still too heavy. “Morbidly obese” by BMI standards. And tired of it. After a lot of thought, prayer, discussion, research and a big leap of faith, I decided to pursue Lap-Band surgery. And as I get closer to it being a real thing, I thought I would start to document my experiences. In terms of my weight, I know I need to lose. If you know me well, you know I’m a pretty wide-open person. So, I’m taking a leap of faith to be honest with you and more importantly, honest with myself about just how much I weigh. I’ve posted my weight loss tracker at the bottom of this page. I’m heavy. No doubt. 271 pounds this morning… My highest, non pregnant weight was 281. I need to get healthier, and whatever I lose will only be a gain in my overall health… but I have a long way to go. I don’t exactly know what my goal is, but considering I haven’t been below 200 pounds since high school, it will be a huge win when I get there. I ask only for your support and prayers (and patience when I’m grumpy on the liquid diet phase). I’ve been so thankful for everyone's response to this decision so far. Hold me accountable, ask me questions, challenge me if you need too - but please don’t share my weight information blatantly with others. I don’t mind that people know where I am in my process at all because it is so important for me to be honest about this overall process. But I do ask that they learn the “numbers” from here or from me… I guess I am reverting back to fleeting memories of 8th grade, where a boy found out what I weighed in the nurses office (about 163 at the time I think) and threatened to tell people. Do I care? Not really at this point, but I have to get comfortable on my own terms in sharing the full details of this journey with people. Thanks. More to come…