OMG I miss my band today... A whiny, binge-y post...
Let me start off by saying that I'm kind of whining. And that I KNOW THAT THIS IS NORMAL... I know. Really, I do. I know that when you are pregnant, they take the fluid OUT because, you need to eat more, need to nourish the baby, etc... And I know that I am going to have days (TODAY) that I am ravenous and other days that I am not hungry... But OH. MY. GOSH.... Can you say binge? All I want lately is protein. Seriously, if Wawa had sold steaks, I would have ordered a 12 oz filet with blue cheese on top... but they don't (thank GOD!).
Here is what I've eaten today...
- 7:00 AM - 2 cups of coffee and 2 glasses of orange juice over the course of an hour this morning (yes, I have permission for 2 cups of full-caffiene). Pee multiple times
- 9:30 AM - 2 packets of Oatmeal for breakfast... and 24 oz. of water. Pee.
- 11:00 AM - Clementines. The equivalent of about 6 of them. Seriously. More damn water. Pee. Again.
- 12:30 PM - A large chocolate milk, a roast beef and cheese hoagie, a snack pack of apples and 2/3 of a bag of Fritos. At least it was a small(er) bag - had 2.5 servings in it, but it wasn't the family size bag. Pee. Again, and again 'cause I'm near the bathroom so why not try???
- 2:00 PM - 3 pieces of chocolate and 24 more ounces of water. Guess what?
- 4:00 PM - the rest of that damn bag of Fritos. Pee.
And the day isn't even over. I still have dinner to go tonight... And I'm still freakin' hungry. WTF?!?!? OK - I get that this is normal, and that the baby is growing, blah, blah, blah... but I feel like I am going to be back to 283 pounds within the next month. I know that is unrealistic, and I am fitting just fine into my XL maternity pants, and I haven't gained any weight in 3 weeks... And I reassure myself that I haven't been crazy, I am not usually eating like this (maybe one day out of 4 or 5 a week), I am trying REALLY hard to make sure that I am including veggies and fruit with my protein cravings... For some reason this time it is meat and clementines or citrus... weird. But.... (big sigh) I worry. I can't help but look at those old pictures and dread the possibility of going back there... of gaining it all back... of being morbidly obese again...
So, part of me really wishes I had the band back and filled because at least when I was at my sweet spot, I didn't have the stomach growling, actual HUNGRY rumbles happening... It'll come soon enough. I just don't want to have to relose 50 or more pounds!!!
Thanks for letting me whine...
6 comments:
I'm glad you wrote this bc I have sooo been wanting to write a similar post lately! The fear I have of gaining ally weight back with this pregnancy is overpowering me, almost as much as thedesire to eat whatever the hell I want! The peeing is so out of control and I sit probably in the furthest spot away from a restroom in our building as you can get so by the time I get back from my desk, I almost have to go again!
Whew! I feel better now! Thanks for letting me vent on your blog! I know all this will be soooo worth it come July!
Lean steak is a GOOD thing, and if that's what you're craving...have some! It's really not that high in calories and maybe you need the iron. I make filet and top it with a wedge of the bleu cheese flavored Laughing Cow Light. It's only 35 calories and goooood...since you probably can't eat real bleu cheese right now, you might like that.
On the positive side, isn't it great that you are aware of what is going on with your eating? You are monitoring it and blogging about it, and although it is more than what you have been used to eating....it really isn't crazy out of control! Clementines? Apples? Protein?
You are doing great!
I comPletely missed you big announcement the other day! Let me just chime in with everyone else and add my congrats and well wishes. Sounds like youve rely got your head together over the whole pregnancy with band thing!
Sarah,
Congrats on the pregnancy!! Just a quick note as I have been a terrible blogger since being pregnant. I have 2 weeks to go ( If I make it to 40 weeks ). This pregnancy has been interesting. I had an almost complete unfill in Sep but started to gain back crazy so had them put some back. Good days and bad days. Not had any heartburn at all. Now its hard to eat the last couple of weeks. I haev gained 33 pounds which I am ok with. good luck with the rest of the pregnancy
Carla
I missed the pregnancy announcement too! Congrats!!!!
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