Time to bust out the I-pod, headphones and sports bra. Time to start running again. I just read Jen's (A Southern Girl's Journey's) post today, and her goals are INCREDIBLE.... 10K's, half marathons.... all before the end of the year. I remember when I used to get posts about how I inspired people to run. That still blows my mind. Honestly, me?!?!?! Haven't you people figured out that I'm somehow a poser, or a slacker, and somehow not really worthy of bandster recognition?!?!? (BIG, BIG sigh... for those of you who have followed for a while, I think mean Sarah is visiting tonight.) Honestly though? Sometimes I feel like I really am not worthy of this. I feel like a bandster failure, in that even though I've lost 80 pounds, I still don't love exercise, and don't want to do it every day (yes, my sane side knows this is nuts). And I find myself falling back into those old habits (Glass or two of Chardonnay, anyone?!?!?). Somehow though, I feel like I'm not living up to being a role-model to others, although damn-it, I AM HONEST with myself... and with you... So, it's time to be keep on being honest. Why stop now, after 15+ months, right?!?!*~*~*~*~*
So, here goes. I haven't run a race since March when I did the Ukrop's Monument Ave 10K. And I honestly haven't run much since mid-April at all. Chalk it up to laziness, vacation, school ending, any excuse possible. And yes, it is HOT. 76 degrees this morning at 5:30 AM. 104 degrees when I got home from work. And yes, I still haven't actually RUN (i.e. all the way) a full 5K.... well, it is time to re-start and re-focus. I WANT TO RUN A 5K. Not have to walk part of it - not even 2/10 of a mile. I want to run it all. SO.... I walked 2 miles this morning, and will be out at 5:45 to meet my amazing running buddies, Chip & Ali, who haven't stopped running (unlike me) tomorrow morning. Yes, it will probably be a lot of walk-run-walk-run-walk, but it is better than nothing. And this week, I'm signing up for my races to get me to my goal of 37 miles before turning 38... And for you new bandsters? The "Head-Games" don't stop just because you get banded... just a thought...
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So... the Challenge/Request: Who's in for RUNNING whatever 5K with me in September at the BOOBS get-together?!?!? AND WHO IS IN FOR KICKING MY ASS TO FINISH IT ACTUALLY RUNNING?!?!? I will be running something on Saturday morning in Chicago, even if it just the Miracle Mile by myself (not Sunday - my plane leaves too early to have to figure out showering after a race). And I need something to work toward!!!! And BOOBS committee?!?!? If you're reading this, I need an update please!!! Let me know what 5k to sign up for to have people to run with... or what the updated plans are - I'm SO excited to meet everyone!!!
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I love this post! It reminds me so much of your "I want to run" post -- which was hugely inspiring!! And, tell Mean Sarah to stuff it! 80 pounds is phenominal. You look fantastic, I have to believe your health is so much better, and you are setting a wonderful example for Lucia and scores of bandsters as well.
I've been planning to party a bit on the Friday of BOOBS, but if you don't get any takers on the running request, you can count on me to run that 5K with you. I'm already doing Komen here (and love the cause), so I don't care which race it is. :)
xoxoxo,
Catherine
You're doing great. Goals are meant to be just that goals not everyday activities. You will run again, you will enjoy it... but you are doing great in your everyday activities... None of us, enjoy exercise, or we wouldn't be where we are... but we are learning each day to appreciate our bodies and do what we need to to get them healthy. I love that you want to run a marathon. I would admire your accomplishments even if you didn't ever run again... I would admire you even if you ran after the ice cream truck. You're an inspiration. *Maria*
Awww... Catherine... I'm in for the party! And for running - I can always take a nap Saturday afternoon!!! And Maria - love the idea of running after an ice cream truck!
*sigh* - me too...way into this journey and while I love to run I can still find excuses not to. You are doing great. Whoever said you had to run to be a role model anyway? Running or not- you inspire - period.
Ok, you are inspiring me yet again Sarah! I am not ready to run...yet...but who knows, I may be running with you and Catherine in Sept.
Yea, and like Catherine said...Mean Sarah can go stuff it!
Okay girlie, 80 lbs is super, wonderful amazing. You have done a great job! So you got out of the running swing of things...no biggie grab your shoes and jump back in. If you want I will send you my training schedule and you can run with me. I will be running at 5:30 am too because it is hotter than Satan's jockstrap down here and I am not crazy. You are such an inspiration, don't ever doubt it.
Haha - slacker Sarah?? Sure sure... NOT! This is the girl who gave Mean Sarah the boot and got off her bum to run... to run!!! Anyone who takes control like that is amazing in my book. Kisses.
Sarah.. your post bummed me out.. If you are calling your amazing self a "slacker".. what does that make me.. I struggle with exercise every day... I make excuses all the time.. I totally admire your drive and approach to motivate.. You are able to organize and get the job done.. I call you amazing..
No go out there and run...(well, when its cooler not in the 100 degree weather)
You've lost 80 lbs and you call yourself a slacker? No way hon!!! Won't allow it!! You are awesome and as much as I would love to say "heck yes!" to running with you in Chicago, there is just no way I can do that! This body hasn't ran since Jr. High and I just don't see it happening...but I will be there to cheer you on! :)
We are always so hard on ourselves, right? You are hardly a slacker! The 80 pounds deserves 80 high-fives!
You inspire me because you are real. You've had your struggles with the band and exercise, but are still 80 lbs down and looking great. I think more people than not dislike exercise, but like how they feel after and the weight it helps them lose. Please don't be so hard on yourself.
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