Feeling a bit out of sorts...

Cowgirl Lucia

I hope everyone had a great 4th of July...  ours was VERY quiet, which is just fine!  Lucia had her 7th birthday party on Saturday (a bit belated so that we could all be there) and had it at a horse farm with pony rides... she was THRILLED!  And it was pretty easy... of course, anything NOT at my house would be better than at my house!  It was hot though - I never thought about the fact that the farm wouldn't have air conditioning in the party room.  Oh well - we didn't dawdle!  My brother and sister-in-law came with my nephew for the day, and then on Sunday my parents went home to NJ... suffice it to say, the house is quiet - it is really the first time I've been alone with Liam since he was born since Lucia is at day camp this week, and my mom has pretty much been here (with the exception of 2 weeks) since my accident on April 27th, so it is just WIERD in the house!  Too quiet.  I've been sorting / doing laundry and waiting for Liam to wake up...  Nothing exciting, but I am going to meet a friend for lunch which I am looking forward too.

I am loving life with 2 kids - I can't remember it without him really, but I am feeling a tad bit out of sorts... the hormones are still kicking, and out of the blue I will have a crying spell but then 10 minutes later it goes away.  I'm KNOW a lot of it has to do with sleep deprivation, but I am definitely keeping an eye on things.  I don't want to mess around with baby blues if that is what this is moving toward.

I also am having this internal struggle in my head of wanting to be back at work (i.e., the mental stimulation) vs. doing the "mommy" things at home... The later is where I need to be right now, but I also am craving the schedule and consistency of school and work.  Yikes.  It is only the first week of the summer (kind of) - what am I thinking?!?!?  (sigh)  I know Lu doesn't want to be back at work yet, and I also know once I'm back that the grass will look greener in the rear-view mirror!

The next 6 weeks are planned out with camps and other adventures... then believe it or not, we are only 3 weeks from Labor Day.  So it isn't all that far off, and I know that Lucia is enjoying the time with me at home (and I'm enjoying it with her)... I just need to find my "off" button for thinking about work.  I think the 7 weeks at home on bed rest have put me ahead with the "itch" to get back...  And I'm not even sure that is what it is.  Does that make sense?

At any rate, not much new to report - Liam is getting big - I think he's having a growth spurt for the amount he wants to eat lately!  All good by me since it means he is healthy and growing...

Here are a few pictures from the weekend...  Enjoy the week!

Lu & her friends... 

My favorite girl!

My brother & sister-in-law & nephew