I am humbled.

Me, Lucia & Natalie

Wow... a particular post on my last entry made me cry in a good way.  I know I am worthy, but I think I kind of had that "ah-ha" of just how much... and it came this weekend (thanks Kathy).  

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My daughter is amazing.  She powered thru the entire weekend of camping in 40 degree (at night) weather with a double ear infection, strep (diagnosed AFTER this weekend but mis-diagnosed last week) and diarrhea with a SORE BOTTOM!!!  BIG TIME.  And she wouldn't quit.  About every 2 hours, I told her I could call Daddy.  But, the answer was consistently "NO!"  She didn't want to go home.  My daughter is SUCH an inspiration to me, because she SO loves girl scouts, and, (which continues to humble me) loves ME being a leader of her troop.  WOW.  She dealt with all of that crap (literally!) plus a pretty constant fever and finished successfully.  And ME????  I surpassed SO MUCH more than I ever thought I could this weekend.  YES, I AM TIRED!  But the weekend was AMAZING.  I was a LEADER.  I know I am, but I was... if that makes sense.  And, as you will see from the pix below, this is why I do it.  Maybe it is a bit of God's work, or my way to give back, my volunteer opportunity, or filling a hole... whatever it is, for the few moments of frustration this weekend, it was all replaced time after time with my continued awe - of 5 and 6 year old girls who KNOW NO FEAR!!!, who powered through illness (LU!), who conquered fears, nervousness, who stepped outside their comfort zones... all because they knew it was a safe place to be.  And if I can continue to help provide it, I pledge to you all that I will.  THESE GIRLS ROCK.   Why, as adults, has our fear been conquered????  I'm not sure, but I think I'm going to try to go back to being 6 again and lose it.

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And to Catherine's Mom, Kathy????  THANK YOU!!!  Thank you for your last post.  It made me tear up, because after this weekend, I think I've realized that I am truly living my life to the fullest that I really can be.  If I never lose another pound, I'm successful and a role model for Lucia.  I'm not always the best at recognizing it, or acknowledging just how strong I am.  Thank you for affirming me... it meant an amazing amount to me today!  (And BTW, you have an amazing daughter)!!!
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Finally (and for those of you of faith), I think God is doing his work.  Did I mention I'm tired?  Well, thankfully we found out what is up with Lucia and how to treat it (the doc last week mis-diagnosed, so on a new regimine of drugs, etc.... I'm home with her tomorrow.  And you know what?  I need it.  I AM TIRED.  In a good way, but also I need to recharge a bit.  So, I'm not going to log in much.  I'm going to treasure this "sick day" with her, and let her rest, and maybe do something mindless and fun.  We'll see.  It may be no more than watching re-runs of Little House on the Prairie, but it will be with her.  And that is what is most important.

Lucia... Packed & Ready to go!

Lu & Natalie - Snuggled up and ready to go!

Lu & Nat - earning their "Shelter Building" badge

My AMAZING Troop... (the 10 of 19 who could come)

Nat & Lu - 7AM - ready to go...

Earning another badge....

Building a shelter....

Pre-Corn Maze!

Friends...

What do you do with rail road ties???  Make a See Saw!

Enjoying their S'mores in 40* weather

The girls who stuck it out... and make it worth while!!!!