So suffice it to say that when the roller coaster and spinning involves emotion, that makes it even harder 'cause you can't always get off the ride. Hell, sometimes you don't even choose to get ON the ride, but you're there anyway. I just read the latest PS post about people not commenting on blogs (and yes, I actually DID comment on it)... At first I felt guilty, because, yes, I have been a bit absent lately and doing a lot more blog-stalking than I like too. Let's be honest. I really haven't been following many blogs at all lately except a select few. Life has just been too darn busy and roller-coastery... And while I do agree that posting is really helpful and important, I don't always (a) have the time to do it and (b) don't always know what to say. I used to comment a whole lot more. I haven't been, because I haven't had time and it hasn't been a priority. Sorry! And also, I have built relationships with a number of you, which I am grateful for - but I also don't know everyone... I digress, but, this is why I blog - to be honest.
So after about 5 seconds of feeling guilty, I decided that at least on my end, I would let ya'll know that (a) I'm doing okay... better a bit each day, (b) I've stepped back a bit lately (in case you haven't figured that out) and (c) I'm not going to feel guilty about that (or not posting)! Right now, my focus is on me, on staying healthy, on trying to get off the roller coaster, and taking care of my family. I am SO appreciative of the support I do get from blogging, but I also don't think it is a bad thing to reprioritize your various activities once in a while. All that being said, here is what I will do in the next 44 days before 2011...
I will:
- Focus on getting through these next 5-6 weeks of work and holiday craziness...
- Be very aware of my physical and mental well being...
- Remember how thankful I am for so many things...
- Remember how blessed my family is in so many ways...
- Share those blessings with others as much as we can over the holidays...
- Keep trying to find some way each day to take care of ME so that I can take care of my family (which probably will include continuing to take multiple showers a day... I know you're saying "HUH?!?" right now - this is my "quiet time" and how I decompress and relax - I'm not OCD or extra-clean or anything!!!)
- Relish in the fact that I am still the most important thing to my 6 year old...
- Enjoy that she still believes in Santa Claus...
- Appreciate the fact that after 10 years (almost) I am still married to my best friend...
- Wonder in the fact that I have so many people who love me so unconditionally...
- Try REALLY hard not to get sucked in to other people's unhappiness and negativity...
- Be a bit more focused on letting God into my life more. OK - no doubt he's been here - maybe that should be RECOGNIZE God in my life more...
So, Happy Thanksgiving ya'll - and I hope that in the next 44 days you all are able to let your guilt go and take care of yourselves too... While I anticipate that I'll be posting a bit, I look forward to reading and catching up quietly with you from my end, and hopefully posting more in the New Year!
7 comments:
Sarah, I have to say that your reasons for your blog are the perfectly right ones for you. I look at mine as a personal journal for the things I might not remember clearly about all of this. I try to come often, but for me. Enjoy your holiday season. I hope to share in your successes in the next year!
You do what you need to! Personally I think the PS Post was crazy, we post when we are moved or feel we need to. It is not about everyone getting the same amount of comments. Anyway... you take care girlfriend.
Well, I have been thinking about that post all day...and how and if I want to comment. I do agree that our blogland is clickie...welcome to life and life with a bunch of women. For me, I am closer to some, know some on a personal level, have met them, etc. This means several things...sometimes I don't leave a comment bc I will talk to them other ways (fb, phone, text, email), sometimes they already know what I think. On other blogs, sometimes I dont feel the need to repeat what others have said, sometimes I am not in the right place of mind to give advice...sometimes I just dont plain have anythign to say...
WOW...look at me ranting on your blog. I love comments. I love getting them. But I also understand that sometimes people are reading and aren't commenting...that is okay too.
Its all good.
I like your list of things. I like how you are trying to focus on the positives. Keep it up!
I found that Comments post weird too. Funny but I leave a bunch of comments on some blogs and then NEVER hear from any of them, mostly newbies. It works both ways and yet I think some believe that they will always take and never give. Whoops, getting too preachy now!
Anyway, my fav of your points was •Enjoy that she still believes in Santa Claus...
I can't tell you how exciting that simple little feeling is when you believe. Enjoy it for a few more years and revel in little ones and their wonder!
Take care of yourself pop tart and know I think of you often.
It sounds like you have a good plan in place Sarah!
I love that Lucia still thinks you rock! I have a 24 y/o (gulp!) and a soon to be 20 y/o and I am so thankful that they BOTH still think that I am the bomb! However, we have had a few days where they didn't think that I am sure! :)
Blogging is extremely time consuming and sometimes I need to focus on other things. I do find myself feeling guilty when I can't comment as much, but there are things that sometimes take priority. I love your goals.
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