I feel like I'm in my own personal jail...

Yes, this is a whiny post... So, don't want to hear it?  Don't read it.  

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Being on bed rest - even "modified" bed rest (meaning I am allowed to walk Lucia to the bus stop, and sit on the couch, and a short - i.e. less than 10 minutes-ish - ride to the store) - is feeling like jail to me.  I know that it is the best thing for me, and for my body, and for the baby (blah, blah, blah) but to not be able to DO things is so frustrating...  AAARRRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!  

I just want to cry.  Wait, I have.  A few times already this weekend.  Dennis, Lucia and my Mom are all being so patient with me, and I take every opportunity I can to "do" without pushing it too hard... But gosh it is frustrating.  If I were "off" (i.e. just on vacation, or something like that), I would have so many projects I would be working on around the house, which is just aggravating to me to know that they are there in my psyche, but not getting done...  I keep reading the Serenity Prayer next to my bed and trying to remember that my only job right now is to "cook" baby boy and be there as much as possible for Lu, but this is so out of my comfort zone!!!

So in an effort to be positive (VERY HARD today), here are a few little things that I am finding enjoyment in that I hope I can remember to enjoy once I'm back to "normal" life...

• I relish the walks to the bus stop in the morning, and the small talk with the other parents... 
• Picking up the mail from the mailbox has taken on a whole new level of enjoyment - even when the bills from the hospital have started to come in (thank GOD for insurance).
• I can play board games with Lucia - I don't always like them, but it is a great way for me to be able to "play" with her.
• When baby-boy wakes me up at 5:00 or 5:30, I am enjoying getting the coffee going and having some time alone downstairs - or with Dennis if he's up... especially because I get to take a nap in the late morning!
• I used to love naps... I'm dreading them a tad because they kind of HAVE to happen right now but I am determined to try and keep my appreciation of them since I know I won't get many soon.
• I can actually take the time to do a bit of analyzation on our spending habits, and start getting a budget put into place... (okay - this one is stretching a bit)
• I haven't resorted to watching much trash TV during the day - yet.
• I will be able to make photo-books for each year of Lucia's life for her to have before the baby comes.

There is a whole lot more, but these are just some of the little things that I can hold on to for right now...  One day at a time, right?  Or maybe a better statement is 42 more days max... and Murphy's Law is that now that this has all happened, baby-boy will stay in until the very end... (sigh)