The other NSV I forgot to share happened yesterday... I met a wonderful friend, Julie for lunch... We haven't seen each other since probably before the surgery 6+ months ago. We keep up on Facebook, occasionally she checks the blog, but we hadn't seen each other in person. When I pulled up, she was already there and she literally could not pick her jaw up as she watched me walk in. The best part??? She had tears in her eyes because she was so happy for how good I looked. I haven't had a reaction like that before, and I had tears in my eyes too - it was great! I guess there are benefits to not seeing your friends for a while!!! (To my Mama's, I can't wait to see all of you soon!!!). And Jules - if you're reading this, I know you've finished that 50 mile (?) walk successfully!!!
So I was cleaning out my closet today (prior post) and every time I do that, I go to the crate in the corner of my bedroom where I keep the "don't fit quite yet" clothes and try them on to see whether it is time to bring them out. Here is my confession.
The crate of clothes that are too big now (which is up to about 3 crates worth of clothes now now) is right next to the other one. What's the big deal??? I am SCARED TO DEATH to get rid of the fat clothes! Seriously, I was having a mini-panic attack in the closet (very mixed metaphors there) as I cleaned out this afternoon. I don't understand what it is... I've sent a number of packages out to fellow bandsters, and that makes me so very, very happy to do that and to see pictures of them wearing the clothes. It isn't like I have fabulous memories attached to them (the pieces I do, I'm keeping)... So I just can't understand what is keeping me from taking the leap.
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I am going in on Tuesday to get my xray/flouroscopy (sp?) so they can see what's happening with the acid reflux, and I'm petrified that they are going to take it all out and I'm magically going to gain back the 55+ pounds, of course, THE DAY AFTER I GIVE THE CLOTHES AWAY... (sigh) I know I'm being ridiculous, but really, this is such a big mental hurdle for me to cross - I want my bedroom to be clean. I want to wear clothes that are fitted and look good. I want to get this crap out of my house. HELP! So... here is another shout out to the sisterhood of the traveling clothes... I have a lot of tops/sweaters/jackets, size 1x and 2x ish (or large running XL's and XXL's...) and they are looking for a good home until you no longer fit in them!!! So, if you can provide a good home, email me (sarah-fogler@comcast.net) and let me know. Otherwise, pretty soon, and I really mean it, I am going to get rid of them...
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Sarah, your NSV is SO awesome. There should be a term like MNSV: Major Non-Scale Victory! What a great story.
As for the clothes, I have never lost/gained more than 20 or so pounds at a time over the past 12 years, so I have never had the satisfaction of getting rid of fat clothes. But I can see where you are coming from. I can imagine being very afraid of it all coming back. But it won't! Get rid of em!
Congrats on the NSV! Just emailed you about the clothes, I'd be thrilled to take them off of your hands!
Looking forward to hearing about your appt, hope it goes well and they are able to solve this acid reflux problem without taking anything out!
Jen
Hey Sarah,
What a magical NSV - I teared up a little reading you both teared up. You are looking SO damn fine (the pics say it all!!)
I also had a clean out. When I got my WLS I realised I didn't have any SMALLER clothes.. I must have ditched them. Only thing I had was a top and a wayyyyyyy to small pair of jeans (which I now fit..yay).
Just like you - I got stuck in and I now have a box full of all my pre-WLS clothes. It's still sitting there while I figure out what to do with it. SO I hear you on the 'is this a dream?' side of things. I too get scared I will gain back the weight.
But, you know what. WE WILL NOT! No way, Jose! Get them out of there lol. Out of sight out of mind.. and you can continue losing xxx
Sarah, darling... your ass is disappearing. I mean, wow. I say it because I know you won't smack me (and you can't! haha) but seriously... wow.. :) You look so fabulous!!!
Also - I totally get the giving all the fat clothes away deal. I haven't sent any of my stuff off yet but finally offered to send some to Ramona... scary thing...
You are looking fab, shrinking so fast...Woot Woot...Love those NSV's, makes the day.
In the past I have struggled to get rid of the fat clothes.... (and most times I have been happy that I had because I have always needed them again). I am sure you will part with them eventually when you are ready...a big part of this journey for most of us is that we are going to have many mental hurdles through this...and this is just one of them....
Yay that is so awesome! Do you post pics of the clothes you're sending out? I'm going to do that soon b/c I have 22 pants and 2x tops to send out. You're smaller than me so it won't matter to you, but I could probably fit into your old stuff!!!
Those are true traveling pants bc they first were sent by Catherine to Angie and then from Angie to me, and THEN from me to you! Congrats on fitting into them. They run small yes? I hear you about the gappy waist...get it? They are from the GAP and I said gappy? hahahah!
Congrats on all of your success. I was particularly touched by your friends reaction to your weight loss. Thanks for sharing.
Wow! That is so cool! I just saw Amy's post and see that the capris you are wearing are from me -- via some of my favorite other bandsters! :) I actually wore those ones low on my hips -- you are right, the waist is very big!
I know just what you mean about getting rid of the bigger sized clothing. Honestly, I had a panic moment about it at one point. But, you aren't gaining this weight back. Statistically speaking, it is very unlikely that any of us are ever gaining this weight back. So, don't worry! :)
Catherine
The story of meeting your friend gave me some misty eyes, too-that's heartwarming, and very motivational, as well.
I am battling the insurance company for WLS so don't really know what you're going through with the acid reflux, but look at all you've accomplished so far. You're amazing, and I'm sure your team will keep you healthy and on the right track.
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